College.

I start college soon.

It feels weird since I thought that I wouldn't make it this far in my life. I graduated high school in 2024 and basically spent a year fucking around and doing nothing, also turning 18. The peak of my life. Somewhat.

Now I have to lock in. College is a scam (if you're American) but, it'll get me more oppritunities. Lol, as if I'm going anywhere in life.

Gore art

I've been planning some gore stuff. I had a phase where I drew quite a bit of gore in 2022 (prime goregrind phase) and thought about reviving it.
I realized that my art isn't that dark anymore because I was too busy practicing anatomy and detailed backgrounds. I WILL be drawing more gore again, even if it means traumatizing myself looking for refrences.

This is from around July 2022 (?) of an old character who was a brutal murderer. I remember having a lot of fun drawing this, this was due to me not looking for references.

«---2022 «---(current WIP)

No new art for nowI've been drawing a lot however, I unfourtunetly cannot scan them right now due to personal circumstances. Its frustrating but until the next week or so, there won't be any art here or on my instagram.

UGHHI'm still new to website building but its frustrating to try and figure something out only to give up trying and look to various fourm posts.
The fourm posts are either too old (ex. 2003) or not what I'm looking for, sometimes too complicated for me. This isn't really about anything in particular, just irritated by the various ideas I have and that I can't execute them.

The never ending cycle When you think you're doing good in your life and the best version of yourself, your future self is judging you.
It only comes with being human, especially if you're a human consumed with bottomless self hatred, then the cycle of judgement remains constant.

Me when a game is poorly optimized I love the Silent Hill 2 remake but I would love it much more if it didn't take 3 HOURS to install on PC and the fact that I have to spend 15 minutes testing what graphics settings won't absolutely destroy the preformance. I have plenty of greivences but I think that the overall game is good, especially in terms of graphics, the way its optomized seems a bit rushed. I installed it months ago and all of this is the only reason why I'm still not finished with it.
I'm not a developer but I feel that they should have spent a bit more time on it to fix some of the optimization issues whilist still keeping the graphics.

HII created a blog lol