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This is my pathetic excuse of a blog.

Entries are relatively short and don't require too much reading. I guess I could just call this a "mini" blog but SHUT UP

20 years

30 June 2026

Well. I'm 20 now.

It doesn't really feel right. I don't feel anything other than surprise. As one could tell just by reading the first sentence, I didn't expect to make it this far. Here I am, just sitting on my ass like a fat fucking chud, but, I'm happy!
I'm happy that I'm an adult and more free than I've ever felt in my life. I draw my silly pictures while the world bursts into flames, but alas I continue to exist.

Anyway, NEVER KILL YOURSELF!

Noticable online cultural shifts

02 June 2026

As a person who's been on the internet for several years, I've been a witness to many different shifts in culture. I may not be looking as close as the other jobless 19-20 year olds but, I've noticed enough. So, since I ... became more active on the internet during the pandemic, I've noticed the people "around" me.

Since around 2024, I noticed that the hypersensitivity was fading but, it was slowly being replaced with the far opposite, an example being justifying racially charged hate crimes and using pedophilia as "ragebait". Its kinda fucked.

In 2025, I saw 'schizopilled' fascist larpers mentioning Agartha BEFORE it was eventually was widely mocked and ironic. God man I can't imagine taking any bullshit on white supremacist, "save evrope" instagram reels and actually agreeing with it over the age of 15. Especially considering the person who probably posted it isn't white and is most likely a self-hating 13 y/o in the Philippines.

I would say that there's not much of a middle ground on the internet and that I don't particularly care for either all that much and go on an entirely separate tangent about that but, I fear in sounding like some kind of centrist. I'm aware that one side is just really annoying and the other is objectively terrible.

ANYWAY, I'm done here its 4am and this is already way too long.

27 April 2026

I really hate this college enrollment process. I've been trying to pass a test that's required to get in for months but I can't. I think I eventually will but who knows when that will be.
It really pisses me off trying to pass the test of a subject I'm abysmally dogshit at (math).

Being an inexperienced coder

13 February 2026

I'm a very inexperinced coder though, I think a lot of that is obvious.

I get some of my designs from sites such as createblog or 2000s websites on internet archives.
I spent a lot of 2025 sleep deprived working and attempting to design my site in a way that isn't an eyesore.
I'm relatively content with the current state of the site and can finally get some more sleep.

Gore art

08 October 2025

I've been planning some gore stuff. I had a phase where I drew quite a bit of gore in 2022 (prime goregrind phase) and thought about reviving it.
I realized that my art isn't that dark anymore because I was too busy practicing anatomy and detailed backgrounds. I WILL be drawing more gore again, even if it means traumatizing myself looking for refrences.

This is from around July 2022 (?) of an old character who was a brutal murderer. I remember having a lot of fun drawing this, this was due to me not looking for references.
«---2022
«---(current WIP)

The never ending cycle

30 July 2025

When you think you're doing good in your life and the best version of yourself, your future self is judging you.
It only comes with being human, especially if you're a human consumed with bottomless self hatred, then the cycle of judgement remains constant.

HI

07 May 2025

I created a blog lol

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